Here’s a more information. As I said, Drea experienced a Lupus Flare. This entailed painful intestinal swelling that prevent her from eating or holding down food. The response is to aggressively treat this with steroids. The problem was that she was tapered too fast off of her steroids. So while she was feeling great on Saturday, on Sunday, because she was on a reduced dosage, her symptoms returned. And because it was a weekend, it took until Monday to get the Doctors orders to increase the dosage. All of this left her feeling very defeated and weak.

Thankfully, we’ve turned a corner. Using a combination of Western Biomedicine and Holistic treatments her strength has increased and her mood has improved. Hopefully she will be coming home on Thursday.

Unfortunately, I’m not much further along on writing. The chances of a summer graduation are becoming more and more distant. I’m still writing and revising ideas. So perhaps it will work out. Only time will tell.

For MAPSSer’s, if I don’t graduate, I’ll probably still drive out to wish you all well and celebrate.

Thanks to everyone for the encouragement and good thoughts. Drea was supposed to come home yesterday, but things have stretched out a little longer. So we’re hoping Wednesday. I’m further along on writing. I’m not worrying about deadlines at this point and I’m just trying to get this out.

That’s what I am. I haven’t been able to write. Five days of mental constipation and hardly anything to show for it. I have gotten an extension until Wednesday at midnight. I honestly don’t know if I can pull this off.

No commiseration needed. Or really looked for. This really isn’t a moment for “you can do it”‘s. The problem is I know I can… but I still can’t seem to.

At one point I was considering that maybe some form of writing was what I should be persuing. Now that doesn’t seem like a great idea. Currently I’m failing in the most basic aspect of writing: laying words on a page.